I just finished Brian McLaren's newest book. I'm trying to decide if Emergent Christianity is worth it or not. I like the idea of redeeming the religion of my youth. There is so much good and beauty in Jesus. So much good has been done by those inspired by him (Ghandi and Martin Luther King Jr. for example). Part of me wants to be part of a movement to change Christianity back into a movement that makes people better people and the world a better place. Another part of me wants nothing to do with that word because it's gotten so ugly and even if I become an Emergent Christian I might need to use a different name. Then a tiny part of me thinks that Jesus' message of self-sacrifice and love leads to abuse and depression and it isn't good at all.
I've been reading a lot of stuff about the feminist movement on-line. This is all new to me. It's a lot to process. http://gyzym.tumblr.com/post/39004853136/just-shut-up and http://www.patheos.com/blogs/unreasonablefaith/2013/01/venturing-off-the-theism-track/ for instance. Now I feel like I need to start teaching my kids what is and isn't good about Disney Movies. And I'm reading Rachel Held Evans book A Year of Biblical Womanhood which I think I can safely say is feminist Christian book. Maybe?
Can I make a confession. I LOVE redemption stories. I really love redemption stories. But love doesn't really fix abuse does it? Or can it?
So many mixed messages in my head! I e-mailed a therapist for the first time on Monday. I hope she can help me work through all of this crap.